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Well, about 2 weeks ago we took the boys for a fun Friday night out at Chuck E. Cheese. It was loud and crowded and the pizza was honestly terrible, but the boys had fun! I didn't feel to great, but kinda chalked it up to bad pizza. Adam and I tried to watch a movie but I felt horrible, thinking "oh man, I'm getting the stomach bug again? Really?! This can't be happening 2 weeks in a row!" I slept with a trash can beside the bed and throughout the night kept waking up still feeling sick. The next morning Adam took the boys outside to play and he let me try to sleep a little more. And sleep I did, til 10 am to be exact, and I haven't done that in many many years! The day went by and I kept kinda of feeling nauseated off and on. Adam went to see a movie with a friend and I laid on the sofa while the boys napped, I ended up falling asleep again, which is COMPLETELY UNLIKE me! I never sleep late, I never take naps, so this was very abnormal. Adam called to check on me when he was headed home, I told him I still wasn't feeling good so he suggested that he could pick up a pregnancy test JUST TO RULE IT OUT! I said "ok" and he headed home. He came in and the boys started waking up so I started changing a diaper and taking Lawson to the potty, I came downstairs and there on the counter was the pregnancy test, I didn't even hesitate to pick it up and use it, I was CERTAIN there was NO WAY we were pregnant, we were just "ruling it out". I did the deal, and waited a few seconds and immediately a big bold "positive" mark pops up! I'm thinking, "this CANNOT be happening!" I sat on the potty for several minutes reeling from the very shocking news and I started to cry, overwhelmed with the sudden reality. I finally came down the stairs dazed by my news and just handed the test to Adam who looked at me with jaw dropped open, "how can this be?" We use several forms of birth control and we were definately NOT trying for a fourth, we weren't opposed to more kids, this was just not our timing at all!

After several days of struggling with the why's and how's in the midst of knowing that Adam's job isn't long term here in Birmingham and that most likely we'll be making another move sometime in the next year, coupled with the fact that I've already had to move once with a two week old to a completely new place, having to unpack boxes, learn a new town, find friends, a church etc, all while nursing a baby, potty training Emerson who'll be 21 months old, keeping up with my ever intense and active Lawson and getting Peyton started in Kindergarten, began to be a VERY overwhelming reality!

I immediately began "polishing my memorial stones" of God's provision and grace in order to combat the overwhelmed feelings that Satan was bombarding me with! God has ALWAYS provided for Adam and I, He's always brought good friends to me where ever I have been whether it was in Ft. Benning, Little Rock or now in Birmingham. He has made it ever so easy for Adam and I to have children which I don't take for granted when I hear and read how difficult it can be for some. As I remembered all that God has done for us, and recalled all the MANY answers to prayers I've prayed, I was overcome with an incredible sense of peace! God is in control, He obviously wanted us to have another precious little life and when I think about it from that perspective I'm filled with a "perfect peace". And yet again my life verse becomes so personal for me, Isaiah 26:3-4 "He will keep in perfect peace, Him whose mind is stayed on Thee because he trusts in Thee. The Lord, the Lord is the ROCK eternal!"

So today I introduce to you, Baby Head #4! He or She is set to arrive September 20, 2012! Thursday I had my first appointment and we were able to see that amazing little heart beating at a very strong 165 beats a minute. It still gets me how God can take something so tiny (just under 1 inch long) and create a precious little life! Today I'm 8 weeks along and other then a little nausea and fatigue, I'm feeling pretty good. So that's our big news, we'll keep you up to date.